It happens to everyone, right? Where you second guess everything, decide you're so ridiculous or totally boring. And it's a waste of your very life to keep going. The COMPARISON troll gnaws on your shins. Or it's the 2yr old, whatever. But you're like...holy poop...i got nothing. I don't post awesome recipes. I don't give helpful tips. I don't have neat family ideas. NOTHING.
Everyone else does that. They DO. Everyone.
So you basically lose it. And this thing you loved, because it was FOR YOU, becomes a depressing, sigh at the keyboard, tear up like it's your period, ruined thing. Just because you want to be the one who is rad at it. Maybe who is all up in the bigtime. I want to get paid to be me. Other people totally get paid to be them.
I have that problem some of the time. I've had discussions with other bloggers who feel it too. It's frustrating! Totally. Up there with trying to lose that pesky last 50lbs.
But here's the deal, for me anyway. I kinda don't have it in me. The only thing i want to put 5 billion percent into is my kids, my husband, eating (i KNOW), and trying to survive the day. I'm not the girl who is gonna track down leads, try to pimp myself out, or MAKE stuff happen. I'm awful at that. I'm too lazy. But i love having this outlet and i LOVE LOVE LOVE the friends i've made, and the fact that i'm not alone.
I do NOT love how all of a sudden some types of people feel free to critique your life, your kids, your everything. Not fun. But that is totally outweighed by the awesome women out there who understand being a mommy, being a wife, having kids, staying home, homeschooling, and just trying to survive - and enjoy life.
So tonight's words of wisdom (stop laughing...i'm so full of the wisdom) are try to remember why you love something, and just do it. Screw everything else. If you have nothing to write, just wait...it's gonna come. If you want to make it big, you totally can, and i'll be cheering for you from my padded cell.
I don't do it often, but i wanted to give a shout out to two of my girls who are working it hard! These are blogs devoted to health, food & family! Go check 'em out - you won't regret it!
Simply Healthy Mom
Real Food Outlaws
Now you try to have an AWESOME night, remember it's almost Friday, and if all else fails, just know that i have to get waterproof mascara off my 2yr olds eyebrows and head.